Carol Shoe

Alas, it is time for an update.
I rather dont care much anymore, enough to update this enough, but I got a job at subway about a month ago. yays.
So I am going to AK for two months to help my mom, she is moving down south, and we will drive me back home.
So bye bye job. Hello AK for a bit, and hello totally numb anger I dont understand.
Alas, I am going to deal with it.

Yeah, its so cool, and its totally awesome!!!!!
*sings more of a Very Potter Musical*
Anywaysss so bsically, Celtic music + Tea = Lovely.
And yes, that is the extent of my math abilities.
Perhaps...

I want to do the oddest things after coming out of a two - three week depression.

• Return to graduate high school
• Never sleep again.
• Go swimming for hours.
• Put makeup over the bags under my eyes.
• Driiiiivveeee to the nearest park with swings and SWING.
• Now why dont I just do all of above? Ponderous. Indeed.
• Well, I suppose the never sleep part is a tad bit impractical.
• But I am happy now. Truly. I think I understand myself better than ever.
• I am ready to simply Do This Life Thing.
• ...and excel at it.

Yeah. saying uhMAZING is lame.
So pretend I did NOT do that. Thanks.
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So basically, I just found one of my favorite artists, Imogen Heap, has done a recording of Thriller.
There are no words for how exciting this is to me!! And yet... I shall talk about it. [fail] So basically, this makes the awesomely dance-y [double fail] song to a whole new level. Making it seem darker and more mysterious. Perhaps a bit like Hamlet.
....Or perhaps not.
The point is, its lovely. As is anything Imogen Heap does.
Listen in!!!


Now, granted, its not meant to be all dance...y...
But i basically love it.
Like I love life.
Mhmm =)
<3

I must admit, I am constantly starting blogs, and then finishing them in my journal, or maybe not even finishing them up at all, because they are too personal for the internet or even sometimes for me to acknowladge.
I have litarally started four or five blogs, finished three of them in poems and one or two just just at all, and shazzam, they move to another place.
Because I don't want to put it on here.
Hmmm ^.^
I suppose that was my excuse for not blogging for the last few days. There are things I like to blog about. There are some things I dont.
Either way, this is a grandly pointless post thusfar
:-)
Soo, I am thinking of many things right now, one being that I am excited for thanksgiving. Buuut I am SO SUPER SAD that I wont have thanksgiving with my family. For the first time. Ever.
Its scary :-S
I will have it with Devyn's family though, so while it won't be usual, I am sure it will still be wonderful.
What is new in my life?
Nothing muuch, but I am glad to say that I have gotten to go hang out with people lately. And tonight, I watched some of this intense meteor shower. Granted, I saw like, two meteors before we left, but we got donuts! Teehee.
Hmm, on Sunday night, I went to the theaters and saw a Christmas Carol. It was interesting. Tim Burton is interesting. The film was fascinating, but freakin' FREAKY hahaa. Don't take kids to see it. It was intense.
I have found some aammaaaaazing ways to spend my free-time. Very productive.
Like, for example, watching A Very Potter Musical.
ITS BRILLIANT. LMAO. I LOVE it. LOVE it.
I think the person who play Draco Malfoy is the best. There is no way to explain the excitement I felt when I found this on YouTube. I was... at loss for words. I may have jumped up and down screeching in happiness if I had not actually discovered this in Starbucks. I did manage to restrain myself, so instead of getting thrown out, I only got a few odd looks ;-)
Realistically though, this got a bit old after one act. The reason I kept watching was for Draco Malfoy. Hahahaa. She did best.
Oh, and the whole Zac Efron poster being a Horcrux thang was preeettty much genius. Muahahaa.

OOOOOKAAAAAAYYY
NOW.
I am awake after yesterday.
Yes. I fell asleep before finishing the blog I promised. :)
Ah well!
I am a Happy Happy Carol Sue today.
I got plenty of sleep too. So i am good right now.
Pretty grand stuff. Now.
I have been in Washington for a month and a half. It feels like longer actually.
And I think it was a good decision.
Sometimes I am more sure than others, but I overall feel pretty confident about it.
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Oh and guess what??
I am looking at getting a tattoo in the next couple months.
Provided I get job, naturally.
So I am very excited about this and I have been brainstorming aaaaallll summer and driving people CRAZY with my ideas and asking opinions, i think.
So I decided I wanted somthing smaller this time, I have a few tattoos in my future I think though.
The first one I think I will get this time, would be a snowflake behind my ear. Some people like that idea, some people say its actually sounding pretty lame. Well, that is pretty much besides the point because i like the idea and it will be on ME. But I am still considering, as it pretty much will be there forever.

Thats the design I like the best so far. But that would only be a start.
I plan on making it different than anything I will find on the internet. Add somthing.
I will figure out what. :)
The reason for a snowflake, as I am sure it probably quite obvious, is Alaska.
Alaska has a feeling to it, and I don't want to forget that. This feeling in the middle of winter when I used to grab some tea, a blanket and a book, hearing the wind bloow or when I would step outside and see the first big snowfall of the year. It was always very beautiful.
Until people drove over it and crap ;)
Then as the winter drew on I pretty much hated it, so don't get the idea that I miss the snow. I just know that those days should always stay with me ^.^
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Now I think I should mention my current favorite song.
"The Calculation" By Regina Spektor.
I love it, because of the lyrics and Regina has an amazing smooth and talented voice that always gets stuck in my head :D
And her style of music is so wacky! Like, you have a nice jazz tune one minutes, then a bit of wrapping, then some techno.
This is my kind of music :D
Anyways so here is the song -

 

I found this lovely youtube video with the lyrics on.
Pay attention to the lyrics, I just love them.

This song seems to be about many things, the media misconception of love, and people try SO hard to get it. Together, apart whatever.
But I think when people actually do manage it, they do find it is not what they thought it was. Sometimes I hear it is greater that ever expected, but hard. Sometimes it's too hard, or simply terrible to live with.
So my favorite part of this song is this verse-

"So we made the hard decision
And we each made an incision
Past our muscles and our bones
Saw our hearts were little stones

Pulled 'em out they weren't beating
And we weren't even bleeding
As we lay 'em on the granite counter top

We beat 'em up
Against each other

We beat 'em up
Against each other

We struck 'em hard
Against each other

We struck 'em so hard
So hard until they sparked

Hey this fire it's burnin'
Burnin' us up"     MMT. Haha. I had to say that. Yep, this is my current favorite song.